LOVE, ME.

2009-09-07T19:22:00.002+08:00

YAY! monday is over, again! :D

anyways, my other wisdom tooth is growing. DAMN. headaches headaches headaches. I CANT STUDY! :(

ive been contemplating whether to visit the dentist. i cant stand the headaches! and i dont know how long its gona last.. i dont want it to affect my end of sem exams. BUT for the previous tooth, i didnt consult and its more or less out nicely~ :x

how?
TROUBLEDDD.

econs' maths really suck. basic maths is not basic AT ALL. somehow i have this feeling that i got cheated into the module.. x.x

pain pain pain.. :(((

2009-08-31T20:05:00.000+08:00

how i spend my week:

monday - lunch with huimin and 5hrs straight of lessons. rush around hss and south spine like crazyy.
tuesday - have a 3hr break btw my morning and late aftn lecture. so far, i keep pon-ing either one to avoid that break. which is really bad cause BOTH MATHS mods are getting harder! usually lunch with zhiyi(:
wednesday - NO LESSONS! slack at home and watch dramaaaaa.
thursday - half day school in the morning. lunching with whoever's free the head home.
friday - HALF DAYYY again. :D
saturday - sleep the whole morning, then go study in the aftn. dinner out GOOD FOODDD. :D
sunday - out with shawn. SHOPP. going broke, but still enjoys it thoroughly HAHA.

i live like a COW can. life is so routined. but come to think of it, people at our age are forced to have a routined life isnt it? :x

anyways, i enjoy going to school. dont know why. hahaha. i like the idea of travelling alone(: then at lessons i can still gossip with my friends as usual. LOL. im enjoying almost every part of uni, except the tutorials.

maybe its cause my JC class sucks totally. and council (peps in NTU) still quite bonded. so im not a part of anything i dont wana be. WEETS. :D the only classmate i miss is XYY. ultimate gossiper!

Let's be hardworking people! First Class Hons! :D:D

2009-08-25T11:12:00.000+08:00

Taylor Swift is so PRETTY! :D

2009-08-20T21:06:00.000+08:00

kinda like uni life, for now.

2 weeks into uni, and ive not really settled in yet. as in, my mood and all. and DAMN the maths tutorials. im studying econs for god's sake! :(

anyways. planned an surprise outing with shawn's friends on sunday afternoon. i think it would feel kind of wierd. first time ma. see how ba! (:

and, im not sure whether id be going for the dinner with 30th on sat already.
1) MONEY omg im like damn broke. when the hell is my allowance coming!
2) ive tons of maths qns to solve. NO TIME. SIANS.

ive THREE tutorials on monday. talk about having monday bluesssss. D:

2009-08-18T10:11:00.000+08:00

Time (does not) flies.
4more days!

busy with school recently. starting to like it, minus the finding for lesson venues' part. :)

and i still havent buy texts! OMG. hahaha.
meeting with zhi later to go NIE buy.
a preview of my future school also. :D

kept skipping meals, cause im simply too lazy to eat. x.x

DAMN SICK now. i wonder if i really have to wear mask out to school, cause that would look DAMN RIDICULOUS. o.o
but i really saw people wearing ok! admire their guts. LOL.

2009-08-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

omg something's wrong with blogger! :O

anyways, timetable kind of sucks now. DAMNIT. where got lecture AND tutorial both 2hrs one!
@#$%^&!

hoping to change it. emailed the prof and all students taking that mod. :x

OMG ONE MORE WEEK! :D:D

anyways, i really need to know my course-mates soon! like NEXT FREAKING WEEK. (:

went for Craft of Writing lect today! i kind of like it. alot. hahah! its not as boring as econs lect. DAMN. should have taken lingustics with chuyi! x.x haii. now, im looking forward to attend my electives! HAHAH. :D

ive really long breaks in my timetable. like OMG THREE HRS on consecutive THREE DAYS. :( :(
someone save meeee!

2009-08-12T16:22:00.000+08:00

probably need to revive my blog. ARGH.

isnt really psyched about starting school, mostly cause i practically dont know anyone from my course and that sucks big time. :(

and pretty much cause ive to start it alone, without someone's presence for the first time in almost 2years.

MAN. but friends are really great, and I LOVE THEM LOADS. huimin, chuyi and zhiyi met up with me for lunch on the first day (tue). yupps, if not id have skipped lunch. HAHA.
1st day in school isnt actually as motivating as i thought it would. maybe cause my first lecture is on maths DAMNIT. i hate it. lol.
but the rest of the theory part seemed easy, as of now. HAHA. better not underestimate it. :P

and ive to come down with fever last night.

i feel so weak, mentally and physically..

jav ng's birthday today! OMG GONA SURPRISE HIM AT JP LATER. :D going out despite feeling abit nua. hahaha.
i guess i really need to be around people during these times. friends really cheer me up ALOT. and i mean it. :)

btw, i really think that 我很有缘 with people that i dislike. BAHHH.

ookay need to go out soon! :D

2009-07-17T12:23:00.007+08:00

LOL. yesterday was medical checkup at NTU. i went with zhizhi and chu.

met up with zhi earlier to eat lunch! AND GOT LOST cause we sidetracked when we saw "Canteen 2". HAHA. omg la, had a scare, cause we both lost the NTU maps in the freshman guide, and totally is walking blindly. x.x

luckily zhi's sister manage to locate and guide us to where we wanna go - Canteen B. LOL. damn funny. and we found a map at the bus stop that we were lost, and took a pic of it thinking that it MIGHT help us later. WHICH IT TOTALLY DID. when we want to find for the Student Service Centre. 3 of us have damn good map reading skills can! :D

and NTU is full of staircases and hills. no worries about getting FAT while studying~ if you're in HSS or BIZ teritory, slim body and pretty legs is what you can look forward to. LOL.

just to let you see what we have gone through yest..

the longest outdoor stairs ive ever climbed:

try to see the top of the stairs! LOL.

was really panting when i reached. damn it. NEED TO GO RUN LIAO. D:

anyways, ive been discussing with my seniors how to choose and plan my electives. which is like uber HARD. omg. i dont even know what can be counted into the ones MOE wants me to take. and i really wanna take more languages mods like Korean or Spanish. this is really getting on my nerves. and i still need to go source for textbooks and stuff like that. wth!

SO MANY THINGS TO DO, SO LITTLE TIME!

well, its definately better than going army though..

1.5 week to taiwan trip.. ):

2009-07-08T09:29:00.002+08:00

my new love! <3

its the new Lexus convertible! OMG I LOVE THAT SHADE OF RED. the other cars (L, F, A, M)are beyond my reach, FOR NOW. this shall be a stepping stone. GET THIS FIRST. lol. decided to take up driving during my NIE days. and drive to school! cause i really wanna go back NY to teach, and i dont wanna wake up at 5 every morning. x.x and shawn's not staying at SK so i dont think our house's gonna be anywhere near the purple line. :\

OMG CANT WAIT TO START NIE! hahahahaha. and i already got to know ONE of my NIE mate, through the MOE TA meet-up. LOL. there's only FOUR Econs TA (including me!), and only ONE is my NIE year de. damn funny la. ice-break also damn fast! cause the other two are my NTU SENIORS. hohohoho.

saw mic tan also! she's gona invite our primary sch teacher to the presentation ceremony! OMG SEEING MR CHIA. its kinda wierd, since ive never gone back since ages agoooo. :\

2009-07-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

shopping with mui, huimin and wan ting today!

WHEE~ spend alot sia, cause i bought quite abit of stuff. so happy! how i wish im rich enough to be able to spend like that everyday! xD

bought 2 slim-cut tees, a shawl, MNG jeans (actually it looks kinda corporate) and some Marks and Spensor tibits! ^^

i felt that mui feel bored though.
MUI WERE YOU BORED? LOL.

some clothes are really pretty, but they're just too expensive! :(

I WANT TO BE RICH! :D

2009-06-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

i was reading through my past blog posts. HAHA. it does sound like me writing after all! :p
dont know why but i felt that ive become matured, but actually im still the same. LOL.

tml going gai gai with my sister! :D shop shop shop! HAHAHA.

thursday going to huimin's house to (early) celebrate her birthday! got surprise for her! hopefully it will turn out FUN! xD

anyways, huimin mentioned that ntu does have camps after all. well, im waiting im waiting im waiting for the invitation to come, but its still not coming. D: i really need to make myself busy!
LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST! :D

and i told jav i wanna go sentosa! ask him to organize, but that's gonna be around two weeks from now. :\

i just realised that i need to buy alot of school stuff. like ALOT alot. i more or less lost everything that i brought to JC. lol. dont know why ive dumped them to after alvls. shucks. needa spend money again! :( i was complaining to huimin the other day that food is getting expensive. :(

i wanna eat GOOD FOOD! x.x

mui just called me. from nus camp. HAHA. makes me wonder whether to participate in ntu camp. :\

2009-06-19T19:51:00.007+08:00

totally not hyped up about school suddenly.
was elated that huimin going to same sch with me, and that her faculty is EXTREME NEAR.

and then suddenly got hit by a 'nuclear attack'. SIAN.
huimin and mui, you two know..

WHYYYYYY! D:
so irritated suddenly. urgh.

huimin! you must jiayou in uni! DO ME PROUD! xP

anyways, last day of work today. excited to start shopping! WHEEE! gonna be broke after july. LOL. and i wanna catch loads of drama! :D start sch jiu cannot enjoy for 4years straight liao. :\

had MOE medical checkup yesterday. HORRIBLE! omg horrible. x.x they thought i was a normal MOE teacher and assured i dont need blood test. was so happy! then they burst my bubble when they zoom in on the forms, I HAD TO TAKE BLOOD SAMPLE. SIANS.

but good thing was, the process was fast! :)

2009-06-08T16:11:00.002+08:00

im really confused recently.

for those who knew and advised, much loves and thanks! but i still cant make a decision.

one big question - am i ready to sign away 8years of my life at the age of 19?

creepy, isnt it?

i do welcome all the opportunities that it can offer, as well as all the benefits, but am i really willing to commit to it?
can i be who they want me to be?

AAHHHHH !@#$%^&*

x.x

2009-05-28T20:04:00.003+08:00

i feel ultra sad that so MANY people i know are going to NUS. :(

and im going to NTU.

its been a hard decision for me, and ALOT asked me to go NUS, but i chose NTU in the end, cause of the course. OHWELL~

i would miss more than HALF of 30th, and yoga as well! D:

did i ever mention anything about my new job? well its not that new anymore since ive been there for around 1.5 months..

THE BOSS TOTALLY ROCKS. hahahaha.
although my pay isnt that high like huimin's, but its average, and i get to do all kinds of different things that are mostly enjoyable! (or is it cause valerie ho is there? LOL.) i learnt how to use type writer (for isssuing of cheques), franking machines, contacting school personal, reading fan mails... BLAH BLAH. and i totally love book sales! :D:D

did i mention i get free lunch from my boss, travelling allowances everyday, and even yummy teabreaks that consists of Han's apple pie, Ritz's durian puffs, Bread Talk's cakes and whatever not? ALL on top of my pay. HAHAHAHA. totally rocks.

how i wish valerie isnt gonna leave that early, cause there's this new girl coming in, and i dont know why, i just kinda dont like her from the start. ohman. and i might be leaving early too. depending on when's the orientation and all. i cant waitttt for uni to start, but i will miss working with VH and earning $$$!

tml i'll be working at expo book fair for a day! lucky me cause i stay too far, so my working hours is only 11 - 4.30. and i get full day pay, same as when im in office. good right? and there's JOHN LITTLE SALES! WHEEEE~ im definately gonna drop by after work! LOL. :D

2009-05-05T21:32:00.002+08:00

seriously, i feel like typing everything that has been troubling me, but i know that here is not the best place to pour them out.

anyways, what's good is that i managed to get my 1st choice for both uni(s). well, maybe my course require a lower score, that is. (econs, btw.) but im happy with it. :)

aiye, choosing which uni is a choice ive to make, again. although i more or less have the answer in my heart. but something cropped up that make me reconsider, again.

life is full of choices. sometimes, being spoilt with too many isnt a good thing afterall.

anyways, i hope to make my online acceptance before 3rd week of may. i heard from huimin that they'll conduct health screening before complete acceptance into uni. wth. *shivers at the thought of needles* SHIT. I HATE IT. i dont see why there is a need leh. (minus the swine flu uproar) i mean, would they deny a dying cancer patient a chance to study degree just because of the illness? well, ya they would but its inhuman! not that i know of any whose last wish would be to complete degree la. perhaps they would rather tour the world or whatever not. :\

i hate being complicated.

i'll miss Valerie Ho at work tml.

2009-05-02T11:02:00.004+08:00

5years with "auntie" and i havent gone to terms with it yet. D: D:
totally dreaddd it.

totally zzz cause i actually managed to make mui !@#$%. haii.. PS her to the nus "party" today. D:

work is so physical and manual and TIRING. but it makes me happy to see my first pay come! HAHA. :D

anyways, im quite surprised that there is still a no. of people not yet get their acceptance letter, cause its already may. it closes at end may right? o.o (i havent got NUS letter yet too.)

tuesday to thursday was very stressing. not only work, but MOE application as well. had to rush back to BPGHS to get testimonial (which my original dont know gone where) and scan (huimin helped me cause i dont have) and email them. OMG. 4days of work and liasing. x.x totally wiped me out.

anyways, BP changed alot! from my run-down sec sch = high class old folks home! i mean, it looks like a high class old folks home, that is, but its still my renovated BPGHS. hahaha. i really envy the new batch of students sia. good school and new furnishing!

but! my faculty in NTU is also a newly built compound. scheduled to open in July, i'll be the first batch of students using it! HAHA. and its next to biz sch, which means i can meet up with huimin easily! :D:D totally ^^ when i heard from the prof. cant wait for uni to start.

work seems so meaningless.
office jobs sucks, but thats where the money comes from. :\

HH actually CAN DRIVE TO UNI! he already got a car (shared with his mom, who doesnt really use). omggg. i want tooo. then we started to discuss about car brands and such. he wants a Ferrari in red, whereas i want my electric blue / dark purple Lamborghini. HAHA. we totally talked like we're rich enough to own those lovelies, but reality sets in after... 30mins. LOL.

but its seriously a waste to own those in singapore, cause you seriously cannot run them to their full power! canot even let them ROAR, only a pathetic purrrrr and you're almost breaking the highest speed limit around. X.X totally sian.

LOOK AT THAT! <3

did i mention that i saw a Lamborghini laptop in Funan IT Mall? its the typical yellow and black. OMG. :D

2009-04-21T19:50:00.003+08:00

2days into work! although its quite busy and tiring, but its quite enjoyable. :D

much better than the days at law firm!

fellow new recruit (Valerie) and i have been busy with school sales. CUTE PRIMARY SCHOOL KIDS. they are so innocent (maybe not some) and adorable! i saw this very pretty girl! and she was so keen on the books we were selling, but she doesnt have enough money, so cannot buy and she was damn disappointed. POOR THING. :( :( and got this primary6 kid that ask whether he can get a freebie in exchange for a kiss. (LOL who wants his kiss!) HAHAHA. xP

job scope will become admin when may comes. HOPE IT HURRY COME. cause school sales are kind of tiring! x.x

AND THE PEOPLE ARE NICE! omg de can talk and gossip! HAHA. these adults are quite cute~ :D:D

hope saturday hurry come!

2009-04-15T19:41:00.002+08:00

today i went for interview at AMK industrial park. hahaha. got selected for temp admin at a publishing firm. but the job scope like wider than admin. :\ who cares. left 3months only~ HAHA.

omggg finally can buy those pretty stuffs i see in shops. its a torture to see pretty things and NOT to own them. anyways, inez says my pay is good. im not sure also, but i trust her calculation. :D i'll be starting next monday, same as her. hopefully its not too boringgg.

these few months made me even sure of my future. i definately dont want to go into accounts. BORING PEOPLE'S LIFE. law also! omgg extremeeee la. :\ mr haniss said that corporate world is so not me. actually i also think so.. i feel that somehow, i belong to school environment more. HAHA. and he asked me to replace his place as a econs teacher after i graduate. LOLLL. he havent even retire yet can. i'd love to be colleages with him! SO HIGH.

student-teacher --> colleages! :D:D

and i can see mr loke!

ookays, im thinking too much into the future.. i didnt even get ONE acceptance letter yet. SIAN. but since mui havent get, then i dont think i need to worry, YET. :)

tummy's not feeling well recently. STUPID. cant recall what i ate to cause it. :x

everyone seems to be busy in their own lives now. work de go work, tuition de tuition, slack de slack. i havent get used to this life yet. i still want to live in the school life. now, even lectures sounds good! even lynn says so. :( ohwell~
we just have to admit we're old.. x.x

and uni life isnt gonna be the same as jc. meeting different people for different modules, i dont even know whether i will get a group of friends that i'll hang out with for the rest of the FOUR years..
is this a good change? i dont know.. for now, it doesnt sounds good. :\

life's short. ive already spent 1/4 of my life in a whirld of FUN and STUDIES and OUTINGS. and going into a new phase of life that includes words like responsibility and mature. im not sure that i would be able to handle that yet..

2009-04-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

2009-04-04T18:43:00.008+08:00

OMG. I WENT TO A BRANDED GOODS SALE AT HYATT HOTEL.

AND I BOUGHT FIVE GUESS BAGS. HAHAHAHAHA.

i am seriously boosting the singapore's economy during this recession. the government should really thank people like ME. :D:D

rights, got quite afew people want to see my buys. so i'll just blog. easier than sending pics through msn. :\

really long queue to deposit your bags. (to make sure you wont steal cause there's no TI TI TI sensor at the Grand Ballroom.

prettyyy lighting! does this consider as a chandelier? :D cause I LOVE IT.

i think i introduced toilet-photo-session to my family. hahaa.

OMG SO ANUTIE! but worth it la! xP

MY BAGS!

OMG PRETTY EVENING BAG! xD

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE, AND THE MOST EXPENSIVE!

very lazy to take out the plastic, but i really like the shiny brown imprints and the shape of the bag! and can put a whole lot of rubbish like jacket and laptop for uni! :D:D:D:D

I THINK GUESS BUCKLES ARE DAMN CLASS. ^^

well, im prepared to sell if there's a nice price offered. xP heee.

and i actually went to the sale the night before my SMU interview. HAHA. which is today! the interview was quite alright, with the discussion being: comment on the common use of acronymes in SG. *shocked* but i think overall it went fine. :D

and i wore my just-bought Guess blouse to the interivew. HAHAHA. I REALLY LOVEE THE SALE. xD

2009-04-01T16:59:00.002+08:00

ASHLYN MISSES THE OLD DAYS:

1)having her favourite econs and maths lessons
mr haniss and mr loke's lessons are sooo entertaining. :D

2)having canteen breaks with XYY
we practically have food break after EVERY lesson. hahahahaha.

3)night studying with my councillors
all those small talks and juicy gossips. OPPS. i mean the encouragement they've given me. xP

4)toilet breaks in staff toilet
i lovee the big mirror and always-there toilet paper. like totally~

5)hanging out in the council room.
my home in school. never fails to skip lessons and hide out there. HAHH.

6)meetings with CIB peps
OMG. they're so joker cannnn. xD

7)sitting outside staffroom with XYY and FISH
just to see people walk past and SAY HELLO to familiar faces!

8)attending events in the name of council
OMG. privillage can. i rmb, for film festival 07, we even had seats allocated to US. like WOWWW. :D

9)listening to entertaining talks my our muchloved MR KWEK
his pronounciation is sooo adorable laaa. :D

10)no need to stress over work/nothing to do/no money/uni application/interviews
life totally sucks now.

most importantly, she misses the freedom to talk to him whenever/wherever.
which is now restricted. D:

she cant wait for Nov 2010 to come~

2009-03-31T18:56:00.002+08:00

i really need to get up on my feet and do WORKKK. if not im gonna munch the whole house away while sitting on the sofa. or get sleeping disorder by napping whole aftn. HAHH. :x

i guess, seeing the situation now, I REALLY CANNOT BE A TAI TAI. i really DONT WANT to get fat and chubby. :\ but the shopping part is GREAT. :D:D

ive to be serious now. must concentrate on my new occupation. prepare worksheets and notes. HAHA.

adorable students, here i come! *motivated*

2009-03-30T12:28:00.002+08:00

last week have been quite happening~ :D

and i realised that facebook is like a blog! lol. once you post your pictures, everyone knows where you've been. i guess this blog is gonna KO again. hahahaaa.

chuyi's and wan ting's birthdat coming up! and my SMU interview! HAHA. ohwells. actually i kinda hatee this week. hope its over fast! (:

2009-03-23T12:34:00.003+08:00

went back to sch on sat night for council camp campfire! saw 30th.. but omg 29th still very bonded! and the guys dont look like they're in army cause their hair is freaking normal. im like, omg you've got hair! HAHH.

tiring day.. but still, seeing everyone again great!

now, ive to bother myself with uni application again. SO TROUBLESOME. D:

2009-03-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

saturday was JTS. :D

look at what he cooked! i think still not that bad leh. xD

gosh. i really dont know which school i want. both got merits and demerits. ohman. this is bad la. i would really prefer NUS for the name, but NTU seems to be better for me..

ARGHHHHHH.

2009-03-09T16:35:00.002+08:00

ahhhh. my fav out of all is the one at the extreme right at the back, the one lying on his mate.

he/she's the highest out of all! climbing and scuttering around, once even climbed onto the water bottle.

SO ADORABLE!

but when i finlly came around to take its picture, it decided it had enough fun for the day. :(

their little keep-fit machine.

i wonder why they keep fit for, in the first place.

their cage isnt that bigg..

and i think fat ones are CUTE.

awhhhhh, naptime. xD

you know, one only cost 10bucks. its like everyone can buy them cannnnn! i guess having a pet can really brighten up you mood. and man, they are seriously C-U-T-E. i was awestruck, standing at the window and admiring and wishing they were mine, when he pointed to this sticker on the glass pane. it said something like, 'i know im cute, but please dont buy me on impulse.'

SHUCKS. *guilty*

i really cant see myself as a pet owner you know. not even one of this tiny little thing here.

and he wants a dog in the future. -.-

*ponders*

2009-03-08T20:05:00.005+08:00

OMG.

results are out. *phew*

ookay laaaa. mine's so so average lor. but im contented with it. :)

just thought that some results arent fair for afew people. maybe they're just plain (un)lucky.

SMU open house visit was a failure. D: disappointment can. i really hate crowds. and the students in charge CANNOT handle the crowd. and im told to use the stairs for 6 storys. im like, WTH. i was really grumpy and all. and he decided that we should leave SMU before i snap at anyone who brushes past me.

AND WE WENT HEAVEN!

i mean, shopping heaven. :p

JURONG POINT!

its really great you know. i think its larger than vivo, with loads of more affordable stuffs waiting for me to buy them. xD hahahahaaa. and i spent near 80. LOL. i feel baddddd. but i really cant leave without buying all those pretty stuff, and he spoils me with the approvals to buy. :D:D heeee.

today we're supposed to go to the usual hangout place to eat lunch and watch laptop movies before he book in in the evening. and we accidentally stumble into a jap foodcourt! :D:D the food is real great! and comes in affordable prices! ohman. xD took some pictures with my lousy hp cam again.

WELCOME.

looking around..

affordable foooooood.

fried stuff! i love the fried sweet potato! xD

the shitake looks ADORABLE! :D:D

queueing for food!

MY MIXED SEAFOOD VEGETABLE PANCAKE! FANTASTIC!

and the fav fried sweet potato and adorable shitake that looks darker after being bbq-ed. :D

his ramen! i finally ate a ramen that DOES NOT resemble magi. LOL.

before we eat! but i know, all he really want to do is to start putting whatever in the bowl into his mouth. LOL. GUYS. xP

2009-03-04T12:21:00.003+08:00

i just went to cut my hair.

which freakinggg part of 'i want to keep the length' does every hairdresser NOT understand!

AAHHHHHHH. looks like i have to follow mindy's 'Growing Hair' routine. sian.
need to eat lots and lots of jelly. :x well, at least its not something i hate, like nuts.

hm, why cant chocolate or chips make hair grow faster? i bet both of us would be estatic. LOL.

and the sad part is, ive to meet the rest with this freaking short fringe tonight. BAHHHH. x.x

ooo. i really love to sit at the front of double deckers.

i feel as though im the one driving. :D:D

and this is a lovely scene out of min's house. the colour of the sunset is supposed to be deeper, but im using lousy hp quality. D:

ohman. you cant really see the red flowers on top of those trees.. :x

2009-03-03T10:11:00.002+08:00

ohman. ive been sick for 2weeks plus, and still sick-ing. :(

gee. i wonder how those virus can stand so long of fighting medicine. erm, not that i eat them regularly but still. :x and i guess my diet doesnt help either: fish and chips, macs, chicken chop, char kway tiao, ice cream, pizza hut. UHHHHHH. heeeee. xD

but its freaking long that i didnt eat those. like one week. ive been really good for one week. then i figured, heck care la. :\

freaky friday gonna come. lol. deep down, i guess most of us are afraid.. haii. but its a sooner or later thing right? ... ohwell.

WOO! sc gathering on wednesday night! :D:D cant wait to see everyone again! ^^

2009-02-20T21:13:00.005+08:00

today was a more interesting day for me.

well, i was abit irritated that i have to wake up at 7am to send my sis for breakfast and then to school for excursion. but now i think back, its ookay la. i dont wanna miss her childhood. besides, i think my sis is super adorable.

and she's really hardworking. UNLIKE ME. we've got like 30mins before she has to report to school, and she, out of all things, decided to learn her chinese spelling again. :\

AHHHHH. BORING MUCHH. i seriously wonder whether we're sisters. HAH. :p

mk's ct ended today! so we went out!

i pei her go re-string her guitar. at this kind of ulu place. but we found a nice restuarant (until today i cant spell it correctly) to sit down and have dinner. end up, i had another bout of dinner. KFC! ohman, my favourite! :D:D:D

IM SO GETTING FAT AND I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY IM NOT. CAUSE I AM. D:

i seem to cant stop eating ever since i started my job (now ended). bahhhhh. bad bad environment. :( i need to curb this gawing need to eat before it gets out of hand. :x

anyways, i was really bored to my toes, so when i see mk, i cant stop blabbering. HAHA. she's such a COW. she admits it. hahaaa. xD a cow that's on switzerland chewing on grass, looking at flowing river and snow-capped mountains. HAHAHAHA. cause she has this mundane life, and in my sec4 Lit, we call it a cow's routine. SO LAME RIGHT. this is what happens when i get bored and you have my company. xP

2009-02-16T11:35:00.003+08:00

OMG DE HARD TO MAKE.

i know it looks simple. i thought so too. i mean, i copied the design from my grandmas quilt, and end up with something that looked kinda alike, but not quite thing. DAMN FUNNY.

so me and muiteng had emergency online meeting, and it went somewhat like this:

' qiyin says:
as in, if the sides are not equal then how to stick together? D:
' qiyin says:
AHHHH
' qiyin says:
my maths still suck
' qiyin says:
#.#
mui:5566 says:
u cut equilateral triangles...
mui:5566 says:
then mark out e middle point on each side..
mui:5566 says:
then e corners of ur middle sq just meet these points can le.
' qiyin says:
cannot equilateral
mui:5566 says:
y?
' qiyin says:
the sides nearer to the square must be longer de
' qiyin says:
if not cannot reach all the way to the end
mui:5566 says:
ok..based on ur pic, cut out 4 isos triangles then mark centre on e longest side of each triangle..
mui:5566 says:
then e sq de corner touches these points.
mui:5566 says:
got another 4 small triangles ard e sq huh?
' qiyin says:
yeah
mui:5566 says:
e 4 small tri must be of same size..
' qiyin says:
ya, same..
mui:5566 says:
erm...really is hard work sia..
' qiyin says:
YA. and given my brains for maths, its BAD
' qiyin says:
hahaha
mui:5566 says:
u cut one, then put tt one on another cloth, then cut using tt outline la...
mui:5566 says:
confirm will be e same le hor..no need to redraw on a new cloth again
' qiyin says:
er, thats what i did. heee.

and then, i decided i need help. FROM MY GRANDMA! hahahaa. direct help from experts should do the trick!
will be heading over soon~ cant wait to make a decent looking pattern. LOL.
my grandma will LAUGH at what i made la. :(
well, at least i tried on my own first.. :\

OOKAYS. i shall report about my afternoon lesson when i get back! ^^

2009-02-12T19:44:00.002+08:00

i didnt know fever can get so bad.
i felt as though im going to over-burn, and i CANNOT find the irritating thermometer. -.-
maybe its cause i forgot to take medicine in the morning, but the aftn was terrible until i remembered to take panadols and go back to sleep.

stupid fever, made me unable to go back to school's Disco Night today. D:
but like what huimin said, its better to stay home and get well for the weekends.
ohwell~

anwyays! i found out that being sick can really help to slim down sia! only thing im happy about though.
if only i can find something nice to eat at home..

i wanted to go eat that buffet de..
looks like its going into the drain now..
and huimin's gonna gooooo.. D:

2009-02-11T19:52:00.000+08:00

I HATE GETTING FEVER ON IMPT DAYS.

2009-02-09T22:34:00.003+08:00

TODAY IS MY FIRST DAY BEING UNEMPLOYED!

well, im not sure whether its something to be proud of, but its definately a positive change for me! im staying at home, coaching my sis. she's really easy to teach you know. cause she's only primary4, and she's already kinda clever, so my job is easy anyways. :D

and i could really spend time making my handicrafts for the 2 special days coming! HAHAHA. xD
*excited*

some already know what im gonna make for vday le. i reeeaally hope it would turn out fineeee. :p for his bday, well~ nobody knows! cause i just thought of it like, 2 hours earlier! heeee. RANDOM, so like ME. :D i cant keep my own bubbly secrets one lor. ive this urge to tell someone about it, but then hor, everyone seems busy with their own preparation. :\

today i went back to school with INEZ. it feels so right to walk the pathway down to the sidegate, opening that rusty metal, stroll beside the bbal court and up the stairs to the atrium. HAHA. as if nothing has changed. but ohwell~ time to face up to reality. I GRADUATED. hopefully with GOOD results. :x

saw 31st. RJ'S HAIRDO IS SO ADORABLE! ookays, she's adorable everytime la. xD inez might become a PE TEACHER. lol. random but its true. mr lim offered that 1week vacancy to her. good money too! $80 per day sia! :D

then ate KFC with mk for dinner. 2 consecutive days i ate it caaaaan. im so ADDICTED. but it'll make me FAT. ahhhhhhhhhh. even mk says it's fattening. shucks. i always love the wrong food. :x

my heart is filled with so much love,
its overwhelming.

2009-02-03T19:34:00.002+08:00

OMG I HATE GETTING FAT. x.x

now im super resolved to do exercise! lalalaa~

MUST MUST MUST!

there's currently no news about results. :( not that im looking forward to it. just that there's this worry somewhere around, hovering in the air. BAHHH.

everyone's got an idea of valentine already. ME? uhhhh.

2more days. :)

2009-02-01T21:36:00.008+08:00

YAY! TODAY I WENT SHOPPING WITH MINDY KON! :D:D:D

its really fun shopping with her, cause got alot of comments and stuff, although our style dont really go together but still, she's a good shopping partner! :D

we went far east, and guess what's the first dress i tried on? (i went out with the desire to buy dresses!)

lalalaa~

HAHAHA. i think its super exotic leh! i mean, its totally not my style to wear long dresses, but if i ever go overseas to exotics places like.. uhh, hawaii? I WOULD BUYYYY! xD i think its soo prettyyy..

and mk tried on this one.

i think she's pretty y'know, but she always go for dark colours.. ohwell~ :)

and ended up, i bought two other nicer (shorter, more my kind) ones. cant really take picture in those shops cause the lightings are really bad, so i went home and..

hahaa! i think the first one (white) is really sweet! he would love it. :D
and i like the ruffles on the neckline of the second dress!

HAPPY HAPPY! :D:D

hahaa. i'll take pictures when i wear them! most probably this weekend ba. xD

2009-01-31T22:54:00.003+08:00

If you were a magical creature, which would you be? Your Result: Unicorn You are nice!!! Sweet and lovable, you are a unicorn. You are very compassionate, and do good deeds even when you don't have to. You are also very modest.
Fairy
Dragon
Elf
Troll
If you were a magical creature, which would you be? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

aint i nice? HAHA. i didnt know..
well, with my very perfect reasoning, i know that UNICORNS DONT EXIST. -.-

im kinda into these personality tests lately. another test said that i belong to another country (Mexico) cause its all rusty and simply classic and romantic. :D sounds not bad, but i would still wish to go USA first. :p

Whic story fairytale are you Your Result: Sleeping Beauty You are a mystery to those around you. You have an amazing voice with which you use to charm everyone around you. But you have enemies so beware. And keep away from needles.
Bella
Snow white
Cinderella
Whic story fairytale are you Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

HAHAHAHAHAA.
PRIVATE JOKE.
for those who knows me really well, this suits me eh? SLEEPING beauty! :D:D
i could really sleep the day away! WHEEEE~

and seriously, i could never be Cinderella, cause she has to do household chores.. -.-

2009-01-31T22:21:00.005+08:00

i never thought you would remember,
those dreams i often spoke about,
dreams i wanted to make alive..

thank you for wanting to acheive them with me..
I LOVE YOU.

2009-01-29T20:15:00.005+08:00

HELLO HELLO.

I SERIOUSLY WONDER WHO WOULD ENJOY WORKING ADMIN.

ITS SO BORING, EVERYDAY SEEM TO REPEAT ITSELF.

*type* *type* *photostack* *send letters* *type* *go out see clients*

and and and. i think im really too spoilt.

cause it must be the first time i EVER touch paper so much in my whole life, skin is dry and my nails are cracking. GOD. it makes me sound old but its true.

I NEED TO CHANGE JOB SOON.

i wonder how's everyone doing recently. ive seen some of CIB people (lynn, eve, sk), plus afew of the usual gang (eugene, javier, jianming) over new year, but the rest, i seem to lost contact.

oh! ive been busy occupying my free time with loads of spongebob squarepants cartoon. HAH. i know its so childish, but ITS FUNNY ookay. totally cracked up. xD i think spongebob is uber cute! like a 4 year old kid. OHMAN. :D:D:D

(random) and guess what im doing on VALENTINE! omg de boring - going to NTU talk. =.=

back to the topic of work.

working makes a day seem so LOONG.. i feel that if i ever go back to sch, my days would seem shorter. :x maybe not, but psychologically yes.

i wanna go back studyinggg..

new year was ookay. usual amount of ang bao money, same few houses to visit, blah blah. :x was bored, so i took out the camera and..

i went to pasir ris with inez to fetch shawn and eric! hahahaa. lucky we went together, cause the journey there (for me) is DAMN LONG. almost 2hours. :( but its worth it, we both felt. :D

something funny is, when we reached, its hard to determine who is who, cause ALL OF THEM LOOKED THE SAME! he called me when he reached, saying "im in front!" im like, OMG BLUR. hahahaa. lucky inez and me are easy to find. :p

on the day he booked in, it was abit better. maybe cause i was already with him when i reached pasir ris, cause i could almost differentiate afew of them apart. LOL. saw quite a no. of NY people. :) ooo. and i took the first photo of him with no hair. hahaa.

so baby i will wait for you..

2009-01-28T14:10:00.002+08:00

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳

爱让我们流多少眼泪

但我已身不由己..

2009-01-26T23:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY ON CHINESE LUNAR NEW YEAR! :D

may there be many years to come.. :)

2009-01-21T20:04:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY HAS A NEW NAME NOW. :D:D

ohmygod. new year's coming and i havent get any new year clothes. MAN. this is bad. i mean, ive got LOADS of new clothes, but they are not for new year! x.x die le.

been real busy with work recently. files that pile up until i cant see the door. and boy, they are heavy. hm, also have been thinking about job hopping. but the problem is, i dont know what job to hop to. :x

im fine with the workload now, but i dont wanna work alone. although im not sure how to get a job with huimin together. BAHHH. *troubled*

AND AND. results coming out in 3 weeks or so. ohmygod that is FAST cannn. i feel like i just ended my Alvls. D: i guess some people like me will be freaking out, busy worrying about the outcome le ba. HAHAA. lazy me, didnt sudy enough. haii..

i want to hurry go back to studying..

2009-01-17T10:13:00.005+08:00

many stuffs happened recently. but the best was that i got to see him for an hour or so on wednesday. :) he came out for PSC interview. suddenly i realise how short an hour could be..

i met up with mindy yesterday for dinner. its really comforting to have BESTIES around at these kinda times. (huimin and mindy) talking to them when im really in a mess can help soothe the turmoil inside. at least for awhile..

decided not to go for the NTU openhouse that i signed up for. its more or less for scholars and i doubt i have that calibre. no use go and waste my time..

and oh, i might be quitting my job at the end of feb. cause he's having this one week break during march and i want to pei him. then end of march, huimin's contract ending and perhaps we're gonna do some happy work like cashiering, cause you get to meet all kind of happy people out enjoying themselves. i think i really need to change my working environment. even mindy and huimin thinks so. ive told my parents. i listened to hm and talk to them nicely, although it wasnt very smooth-going, but i think i got my point through. :)

huimin was really great at planting false hopes in me you know. hahaa. funny girl. she told me how slack choa chu kang camp is, and ask me hope that he get in there as officer. then even worth it. higher pay plus slack work. hahahaa. i was hyped up a little becaus, cck camp just 10mins walk away from my house! like freaking NEARRR. :D:D but then again, the more you want something, it always doesnt happen. life's cruel huh. ohwell. live with it man.

been listening to radio (my colleage's) while working, that explains all the short lyrics after my post everytime. hahahaa. its like one or two songs would make me damn emo recently. i could totally connect with the words and all.

.
.
.

friday is coming.

突然好想你
你会在哪里
过的快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆突然翻滚

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣

2009-01-13T20:34:00.002+08:00

today is the 2nd day that he cant come fetch me after work, but it already seems like forever..

watched old movies recently. Another Cinderella Story is very very VERY NICE! :D:D
warning: its a chick flick. hahaa. i adore them. xD

been talking to my friend who has been in army for 1.5 years. i knew abot quite abit of stuff from him actually.. like, OCS is in JURONG! like omg de near choa chu kang that JURONG. now i think being an officer isnt that bad. im dropping the idea of a clerk. HAHAA. xP

work has been busy. closing past year files and such. tiring work, but days arent that slow when i have stuff to keep me occupied with. :) today i went out for my lawyer again. this time i handled a case that involve 330k! i was freaking scared that people won steal the cheque from me you know. hahahaa. im gonna be sooo dead if it happens. but then again, who dares to steal a lawyer's stuff? SUE YOU TO BANKRUPTCY MAN! :p

10 days to seeing you..

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

Your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

FOREVER.

2009-01-12T21:17:00.002+08:00

i seem to have alot of things that i want to say to him every night..
.
.
.
but actually, all i want is to see him again..

谁改变了我的世界
没有方向
没有日夜
我看着天
这一刻在想
你是否会对我一样思念

你曾说我们有一个梦
等到那天我们来实现
我望着天
在心中默默念
下一秒你出现在眼前

想念的心装满的都是你
我的钢琴弹奏的都是你
我的日记写满的都是你的名
才发现又另一个黎明

2009-01-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

The world would be a lonely place
Without the one that puts a smile on your face
So hold me 'til the sun burns out
I won't be lonely when I'm down

'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer

I never doubted you at all
The stars collide, will you standby and watch them fall?
So hold me 'til the sky is clear
And whisper words of love right into my ear

'Cause I've got you to make me feel stronger
When the days are rough and an hour feels much longer

Yeah when I got you
Oh to make me feel better
When the nights are long they'll be easier together

Looking in your eyes
Hoping they won't cry
And even if you doI'll be in bed so close to you
Hold you through the night
And you'll be unaware
But if you need me
I'll be there

i wonder if its allowed, but he sneaked an sms to me at about 3plus in the afternoon. :D

tomorrow im going to have dinner with ting and huimin. ^^ at NYNY! both of them wanted to eat something a little more expensive so here goes. xD

and after i packed my wardrobe today, i dont really worry about no new year shopping anymore.
cause ive got loads of new clothes in the wardrobe!
like OMG de alot. :D:D

and i dug out afew pieces which i can wear to work. GREAT~ i dont have to look so mature (as he calls it) anymore. ^^

oh! its going to be night time soon. :D

2009-01-10T08:42:00.003+08:00

I WOKE UP TO THE BEST THING THAT EVER HAPPEN THIS MORNING!

he smsed me early in the morning before he reported for whatever he need to report! lucky that i didnt on silent yesterday night, so when the phone rang, i woke up immediately. my poor thing has to wake up at 5.30 am.. SO EARLYYY. he usually has trouble waking at 6.30 am to go school.. D:

but still! he bothered to sms me! :D:D
it seemed to be ages since i see his sms.

but when the excitement wears off, i started to wallow again. SMSes was like so common back then.. i couldnt live 10mins without the faint vibration of my sony ericsson. and now... :x

OHWELL.
i know the meaning of that SMS was to cheer me up for the whole day.
i shall try not to disappoint him!

im going to clear my wardrobe today! get ready for new clothes to go in! HAHAA.

23rd jan hurry come..

2009-01-09T22:42:00.001+08:00

i just talked to him. he sounded rush (bedtime for them), so we didnt really talk much. thats army life i guess.

i just want the 2weeks to be over fast...

2009-01-09T19:44:00.005+08:00

I have officially become a part-time widow. D:

life kinda sucks without him around. this morning was the last time he would call me and pei me to work.. i really dont wanna put down the phone. its kinda his last freedom call or something. URGH.

after we hang up, it was busy morning for me and i cant sms him much. then, he couldnt use phone already. im missing him already. how in the world am i gonna last TWO FREAKING WEEKS?!

now, i hate taking mrt cause he's not there for me to lean on.
i dont look forward to 5.45 as much, cause he's not outside my workplace waiting to fetch me.
i dont look forward to 8.15 in the morning, cause he wont be calling me to talk.

my phone doesnt vibrate every 5mins or so. ITS JUST WIERD. i dont know what use i have for my phone now.

he's been really nice and patient, although ive been teary about this ns thing.
he even gave me ownership over 3rd party (his psp) for the time being, so that i can keep myself occupied when he's not around to pei me. (i get really grumpy when im bored.)

i hate life without him.

but then again, i guess its just the first 14 days of not seeing each other thats unbearable. he still can call me about 5 to 10 mins every night, and after the first two weeks, i can see him after every 5 days.. hm, shouldnt be thatttt bad laaaaa.. *psycho myself*

homecooked food for dinner cause, obviously, darling cant fetch me from work to bring me go eat dinner. BAHHH. i shall go eat le. he wants me to get fatter. :x

and and, im looking forward to the call thats coming around 9.30 tonight. :D

2009-01-04T20:05:00.003+08:00

i think its time to revive my blog abit. its getting dead. erm, i think its already dead.

well, have been working recently. not exactly some kind of job i would really devote my life to y'know. its like, im in a stack of letters and drafts everyday. ohman. AND, i have to go on "completion", which means i have to bring those letters out sometimes and let clients sign and all...... DRAGGY. TOTALLY BORING.

and it makes me ponder about my future.

WHAT DO I WANT IN LIFE?

i mean, loads of people are (should be) currently thinking of this question man. results coming out during feb/march i guess? its kinda scary to think of it, but its time. i kinda procrastinate thinking about it from afew years ago. BLEAH.

but seriously, who KNOWS what they want in life now at.. EIGHTEEN? i feel old, but it sounds young to be deciding your life at eighteen.. i kind of envy the guys who are going army soon. they dont have to think about this complex question. YET. hahaa.

and the more i think of this, the more absurd my future thinks itself to be.

like,

FAMOUS FASHION DESIGN BOUTIQUE OWNER.

hahahaaa. :D:D

CMON. that should be the dream of every girl in town isnt it? unless she doesnt really dresses up..

but thats all fantasy i know.

will upate if i really found a realistic route in life. :)

and, ive been dreading the arrival of january 9th. its the day that he has to report for army. NO ONE TO SHOP WITH. BAAHHHH. deep inside i know its inevitable, but then.. a girl still can hope and whine, cant she?

soooo we decided to take loads of pics (not alot compared to huimin and justin) so that it can sustain me through the first two weeks. HAH. LIKE IT REALLY CANNNN. anyways, we took our FIRST EVER NEOPRINT today!

hahahaa.

WE ARE SO NOT NEOPRINT PEOPLE.

we fumble around the touch-screen, and manage to come out with pretty decent shots (i think). sorry peps, scanner down, no photo. :)

but i LOVEEE this one that we took at mt faber.

will update real soon people! loves till then! :D

2008-12-31T23:30:00.002+08:00

OHMYGOD.

i just realised how LONGGGGG i didnt come up to blog. hahahaa. its been agessssss my friends. :D

tonight's the last night of 2008 and i guess i should leave something behind in the last half an hour of the year.. SO HERE I AM! nahhhh, im not the night-girl, so countdown's definately not for me. :D home in front of, tada! COMEPUTER!

OH! rights, before i forget, two insects visited my room during the past hour. i seriously dont need any last minutes goodbyes from them you know. but they just popped into MY ROOM (and i freaked out of course). EW. i immediately disinfected my bed after my dad cleared them. another YUCKS.

back to the topic which sparks my mood for blogging.

I CANT STAND HOW DISGUSTING SOME PEOPLE ARE. URGGHH.
totally~ *rolls eyes*
i mean. they really intended to type SHIT but they keyed S*** instead? like CMON! everyone knows you mean it. if you wanna say it, then just say it.
OHDEAR. i think i really starting to dislike the person. HAHAHAHAA.

I MUST STOP, IF NOT THIS IS GONNA END UP BECOMING A BITCHING SESSION. x.x

I REALLY WANT TO GO USA!:D:D
mindy just came back recently, and from what ive heard so far, its great! SHOPPINGGG OF COURSE. hahahaa! xD

like, WHAT ELSE could i mean? xP

alrighty! my time here is almost up! gotta go spend the last few minutes of 2008 more wisely!

P.S. like sleeping is a wiser activity. HAH.

2008-05-26T18:34:00.002+08:00

will you ever say,
i dont love you like i loved you yesterday.

2008-04-28T18:56:00.002+08:00

when you look me in the eyes
and tell me that you love me
everything's alright
when you're here by my side

when you look me in the eyes
i catch a glimpse of heaven

i find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes

when i hold you in my arms
i know that it's forever
i just want to let you know
i'd never want to let you go.

<3

2008-04-12T20:25:00.003+08:00

today i went back to the hospital again.. i just went yesterday. and then today i had to go back. feel so bad. hahh. actually it was nice seeing my doctor again. she's so cutee.. hahaa. she can talk about anything and everything under the sun. today she nagged about her husband, of whom is a doctor too in the same hos. hahaaa. and i was like telling her, heyy your husband is wayy cool. and she goes, you dont see him at home. LOL.

now i know how painful tranquilizers can be. who says they make you feel better. IT HURTS. and it makes me feel like vomitting till now. bahh. and i feel bad to make my mom worry so much. ); i guess i'll listen to madeline (my doc) to remain calm and emotionless.

and i talked to lynn for quite long today.. when she heard about this, she asked me to think of pretty pink unicorns and our nyny cotton candy apple tree. hahaa.. that was adorable.. (:

2008-03-28T11:10:00.002+08:00

What Qiyin Means

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

OOO I THINK IM COOL~

hahahaaa! xD

2008-03-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

I WENT LITTLE INDIA TODAY! :D:D

lalalaa~ heyy peps! little india is a must go place yeah. they've got nice bangles (for people with not so small wrists) and cheeeeaaaapp shoes (that look totally like they're from charles and keith) and even illegal (opps!) roadside stalls selling adidas (not sure if its fake) jerseys! OHMYGODDDD. hahaaa! so high now. xD

alright alrights. shall calm down.

go check it out yeah. :D

2008-03-24T20:07:00.003+08:00

always see, always thought, but never knew.

the sky is still dull.
when will it clear?

2008-02-10T15:11:00.000+08:00

every morning, when i sit on the mrt to amk, i look at the tired faces of students, working adults, and sometimes even the older generation. then i wonder, why are we living like this? what are we rushing for? to get to school/work on time. so, then, what? there's no big announcement/disclaimer that has your name up there with your nric saying "BLAH BLAH got to school/work* on time! YIPEE! extra bonus!"

alright, so we do this all because we want to live a good life. but has anyone notice that we're not exactly enjoying ourselves, crammed in the mrt, sleepwalk-ly hanging onto the gripholds and posts and having a fierce battle with our eyelids, reach our destination, work work work, type type type, write write write, listen listen listen. isnt it enough?

the non-existant super heros are NOTHING. the world just needs someone to stand out and point out why we're living like this. why are all of us striving for the best, pushing our limits, when what we gain, we're not gonna own them forever?

science is rubbish! who says science can explains everything. ya, nucleus, atoms, forces, etc. humans can live without it during the time Before Chirst, why not now. why cant science explain the reason as to why we're here? in fact, as i see, we're living for Science. its like, "Hail to Science and Technology!" *bows in respect* my foot! of course, it has merit points, especially in medicine field. but whether we live or be gone, its nature, why should we alter nature and bend it to our will? look at the externalities. isnt it heart-breaking? then we, the oh-so-great people say, "look! Technology can solve these problems!" ya right, of course we have to, WE CREATED THEM. like duhh.

why do we want so much? why cant we be satisfied with whatever we already have?
this irks me. alot.

one of these days, when id enough, i'll be the real super hero.

2008-02-02T23:03:00.000+08:00

wouldn't it be nice if the world is cadbury chocolates.
then i could just eat away all the unhappy stuffs.

if i could eat away all the unhappy stuffs,
then i would be overweight.

but at least feeling better than now.

2008-01-29T18:26:00.000+08:00

i feel like a sheet of transparent purple-tinted glass.

transparent, feeling invisible and unimportant.
purple, moody.
glass, i dont know. maybe hindering others in their way.

and feeling like this aint some happy thing.

2008-01-26T19:11:00.000+08:00

you know the song Lucky by Britney Spears? there's one part that goes like this:

if there's nothing missing in my life
then why do these tears come at night.

now i know why. perhaps there's something extra in her life that she needs to get rid of before being able to smile again.

human are human. whenever they're unhappy, they think of possible things that they LACK which makes them down. but they'll never think of the things that they own which is possibly the main reason for it.

lesson learnt.

2007-12-29T22:05:00.000+08:00

ive been feeling pretty restless recently.. hm, let me think why. uh huh. maybe cause ive TESTS straight away when school reopens? ahhhhh, that explains all i guess. who looks forward to it. YUCKS.

anyways, ive just read the cold jokes that MUI sent through gmail. LOL. super duper HER kind of jokes. but still, it's heart warming to see that mail. cause it's her xin yi. (: it's actually pretty interesting to see how these small gestures can bring a smile to our tired faces at the end of a tiring holiday.

thinking back, we've actually come a long way to be what we are today. all that we've gone through, it makes us become like the 29th. and just afew months ago, i was still marvelling at their bonded-ness. no! we're different. ours are special in a different way. to those who have really spent time with us, the sense of belonging cannot be denied. in fact, i pity those who have not put in their time and effort and is left out sometimes. however, to most of us, the harvest this year is plentiful.

i dont want to move forward. 4months later, we would be stepping down. my motivation to go to school will be torn away. but this would be a test to us. to treasure and maintain this friendship found, or to let it fade away with each passing day?

we shall see.

2007-12-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

sometimes i do wonder what's my existance for.
im sure everyone is created for something.
i just haven't found out what my something is.

all that im sure about, i want to be missed when im gone.

that should be what everyone wishes right?
to have an impact on others, having others feel your absent.

i mean, won't you feel sad if otherwise?

i would.

2007-12-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

why should it matter.
humans really court their own death sometimes.

whatever.

2007-12-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

people are complaining that i dont update my blog. *looks down at the tagboard* :p

heyy, cant blame me! you sure you wanna hear about me returning to school and doing council stuffs, or staying at home sitting on the sofa watching tv till my butt is numb, or sleeping away half of the day? well, thats how ive been passing these few days.. i bet yours is much more interesting than mine.

then again, i must clarify, doing council work doesnt equal to no life. THAT IS MY LIFE. :D dont know why, alot of jc students dont like their council. i know they're alright with the councillors, but they just dont like council. teenagers' rebellious nature perhaps? but heyy! we're working our nights away for the sake of who? NOT US for sure.

this will result in people saying, "who ask you guys to join council!"

but then again, you havent join council before, you wont know what we've gone through, what we've done as a team, and how strong we've grown throughout these months of hardwork and play. so isnt it abit unfair shining a different light on council then?

i know you guys love your cca. understand us, we love our cca too! :D

and i really appreciate those OGLs who's been really cooperative and nice! xD im not sure about the rest, but the 9OGLs whom im in-charge of calling, they're angels. (:

2007-12-12T22:15:00.000+08:00

under what conditions does suspicion arises?

when there's evidence, or simply, based on nothing that's happening..

2007-12-02T11:14:00.000+08:00

MY BELOVED..

BOLSTER!

hahahaaa! thanks for being with me throughout that evil cramp this week.

and i saw what i missed at lynn's blog. shucks.. D:

2007-11-16T23:57:00.000+08:00

hahahaa. i feel bad. look at the difference in numbers. :p

2007-11-16T22:23:00.000+08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IN

ONE HOUR AND 37MINS! :D:D

2007-11-13T17:35:00.000+08:00

my xxxxx,

i really dont know how to start writing this. im not even sure you'd give a damn about it. after all these time, i never thought that we would be at this point. it sucks, but i know that we arent gonna work out alright.

do you ever know that i love you so much, it pains me.

friends always tell me, why do you have to put up with him. you definately can find someone better.
but they know the reason: my love for you was blind.

do you remember that we would always be up all night, talking till the morning light.
do you remember that we used to laugh and say, that no one would stand in our way.
now i would fall asleep in hopes of dreaming that it would be like the way it used to be.

i watched helpless as you turned away from me.
a pain so deep, i have to carry.

i remember the times i used to call you in the middle of the night crying.
and you were there to shelter my pain.

you used to say that i loved you like a child.
possessive of her own things yet innocent as could be.

i admit that im like a child.
one that needs alot of attention and love.
once, you said that it was adorable.
yet now, i guess you just find that irritating.

you couldnt even be bothered to return my smses when im sad and i need you to get over it.
just afew words will do.
but the reply i was waiting for never did came.

that hurts the most.

my feelings for you is so ever strong.
my love for you never once faded.

i think i know what's on your mind, cause you look like you've got something to say.
but i made my move first.
i saved you the trouble.
a part of me died as i made this decision.

i just wanted you to know, that my love for you cannot be described in words.
but i just couldn't make you see it after all these while.

i may not be able to say those words anymore.
but, i love you.

woah. i think i can publish a book or something already. got the inspiration from xxx. of who, i'll never say. ive been having random mood swings lately. BUT ITS NOT PMS YEAH.

hehh.

2007-11-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

NIGHT SAFARI!

and i found out that, it is really reeeeeaallly like ZOO, just that people go in at night, and the roads are smaller, and it doesnt stink that much (from my memory of the zoo). at first when you step foot in, its actually quite creepy. but after awhile, i guess you'll get used to it. must go with people that you're close with then FUN. just imagine wan ting going in. HAHAHAA. xD

and yong cheng said that i cant really see the animals. which was quite true sometimes.. they dont come out for you. ): but i guess we're lucky that we can see most of the animals. AND DONT BE CHEATED. you know, if you dont take the pram, ahem, i meant tram, it equals to not going about a third of whatever that is in night safari. yeaps. AND NOBODY WARNED ME. :x ohwell.

there's a point in night safari where you face this hugeee reservior, and the scene is just majestic. and yesterday night, its was like going to rain, so the sky was purple, and it was, WAAAAHHHH. a very not-belonging-to-Singapore view. hahaa! its before the giraffes, i remember! :D

and we watched Creatures of the Night show. the animals out for show are CUTE la. and there's this staged missing animal. HAHAHA. and i actually fell for it. i even said, "wont their reputation be ruined, like this?" :x they "found" the missing SNAKE (ohmygod) under the audience's chair. HAHAA. but i think alot of people fall for that too. so im one of the majority. yeaps. :p

well, if you have money to spare and you dont know where to go, you can go NIGHT SAFARI! :D:D hahahaa! but i guess no one wants to go the second time. do they? o.o

AND. NO FAIRRRR. my sis got tamagotchi (is that how you spell it?)! so CUTE! my auntie gave her one. OHMAN I WANT TOOOO. where do you exactly find it from? bahhhh. my sis dont let me play la. shoots. next time i get PSP also dont let her play. muahahaa. xP

BUT I WANT THAT TAMAGOTCHI. ):

2007-11-09T16:41:00.000+08:00

i have this bad feeling that i have TOOTH DECAY.

i can feel a hole with my tongue on my left molar! OHMYGOD. im not sure whether its a chipped-off tooth or decay, but it TERRIFIES me at the thought of DENTIST. YIKES.

anyways. i forgot to whom i tell, but im sick of MY life!
I WANNA BE A HAPPIER GIRL.

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before.

i tried to sleep
but the clock is stuck at thought of ______.

keeping it inside, it's killing me
i wish i could find the words to say.

i can see the path that im supposed to take
but i just couldn't seem to take the step.

THE FACADE OF LIFE.

2007-11-08T20:39:00.001+08:00

min: i have this sudden urge to sit airplane at night and SLEEP.
me: ehh i wanna sit that two layered airplane lor! so cool~ never sit before one! :D:D
min: huh. two layered?
me: yaaa! that two layered that one? the new one! *uses hand to show two layers*
min: what?
me: that uhhhh, TWO STORYED PLANEEEEE!
min: TWO STORYED LAAAA. WHAT TWO LAYERED! RUBBISH! YOU THINK KUEH LA PIS ARH. xD
me: HUH. why kueh la pis? why cannot gao ding kueh. mygod la, so unglam!
both: HAHAHAHAHAA.

RANDOMNESS.

2007-11-08T11:48:00.000+08:00

CAN YOU BELIEVE IVE GOT MY OWN MT EVEREST?

YEAH. LOOK AT MY STACK OF HOLIDAY HOMEWORK.

TOTALLY SCARY MAN. lets see.

the very very urgent ones are LEP. baaaahhh. 5 pieces of 20m essay by next friday. they evil one can. me and eunice still owe homework and they throw more on me. MAKES ME RUN AWAY MORE. then i still got xue shan fei hu to read finish, which im still stuck somewhere going to pg100. PW IN CHINESE. MAN. IMAGINE THE HORROR. its long overdue lor. but dont know whats my group members doing so i shall slack abit. :p

then got econ and maths, but those over the whole hols can complete. NEVERMIND. i kinda like maths and econs anyways. (:

HOW COME MY CHEMISTRY DONT HAVE ARH. GOOD. :D

then then. AAHHHHHH PROPOSALS! ohman. now busy with games de. later have to switch back to PublicRelations com to organize the OGL WORKSHOP. baaaahhh. i know how the seniors felt already. BUT ITS FUN! xD

not the homework part.

HOW CAN I FORGET CIB'S EVENT THE ONE! :D:D man! started out to plan the dates yesterday! took super looooonng la. but still CM IS ALWAYS FUN. :D tentative dates are out. after the meeting, i found out, numbers are scary.

im a busy girl! xD
STUPID LEP. :p
cant wait to graduate and GET RID OF IT! :D

2007-11-05T14:53:00.000+08:00

OP IS OFFICIALLY OVER! :D

YEAPS. today was my op. i got ms petrinne lee! my tennis teacher! ohmygosh. so high sia. actually i thought she would be lenient and all. cause pe teacher ma.. BUT. her q and a qns are SO HARD! freakish la! and i just got crowned ms. bullshit. (i really dont like the usage of words here by the way:p) HAHAA. my group members said i talked so like an economist. psst. i think i can score well for econs alvls. xD

oh ya! i saw nina and guo hao at the council board when i was heading outta school. they were coming up with o1 college games! so fun! of course, cause i crashed ma. :p i helped them thought of two i think! :D ohnos. i still have to think of sentosa ones. (im in that com) HAHAA. xDand IM STILL WITH HUIMIN FOR THAT! wow. talk about fate.

anyways. super tired now. dont even have to mood to eat my lunch. GONNA HEAD TO MY BED.

SEE YOU GUYS IN SCHOOL! ^^

2007-11-04T20:59:00.001+08:00

today i learn something very important.

you cannot, ABSOLUTELY CANNOT, laugh when you feel constipated.

yes thats right. its times like this, when you ate till you feel like a stuffed toy and you have a oh-very-good friend beside you who makes you laugh and OHMYGOD. TOILET PLEASE.

HA HA HA.
see mindy kon.
told you i'll blog about it.
TADA!

2007-11-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

somehow, i just feel that its not enough.
ive tried. you've tried.
so what's lacking?
dont ask me.

2007-11-03T17:03:00.001+08:00

you took my hand
you showed me how
you promised me you'd be around.
i took your words and i believed
in everything you said to me.

forever and ever.
who knew.

ive to start counting my blessings now. (:

2007-11-02T20:00:00.000+08:00

just now, my mom almost sinks her teeth into one of my chocolates.

me: AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!
mom: what thing?
me: mommyyyyy, you eating MY chocolates!
mom: oh you buy one arh? how come fridge got so many tibits. waste money leh you. i help you clear stock, no wonder getting fatter. *grumbles*
me: CANNOT EATTTTT! i want to eat de lor! gimme backkk!
mom: next time buy for you la, petty!
me: cannot! my friend give me one leh you. ask daddy buy for you! *snatches my chocolate back and took a bite* SEE. im eating it. :p

i saved my chocolate! :D

2007-11-02T07:31:00.000+08:00

15days! :D:D

but before that.

OP.

2007-10-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

today i went to BUGIS STREET! ohman. was wayyyyy crazy walking walking AND walking. almost killed and lost in there. next time i have to go with people who have great sense of direction. :p

anyways. went for pizza hut lunch. gee. saw super alot of kranjians. hahaa. then then. bugis! erm erm, was kinda excited cause super long never go ler maaa. then.. ohoh. mindy set off to find her boot-cut jeans. but too bad! i set off for nothing and found a nice blouse first! :D:D i bought YELLOW! SO HAPPY-COLOURED! :D:D then we continued the hunt for min's jeans.

FINALLY! we saw a whole trail of jeans shops. was super scary laaa. i mean, like one whole LANE of them. ecccks! x.x anyways. min FINALLYYYYYY found her jeans there. and i tried on a knee length one! looks nice leh! but guess what! i took size 25, when usually mine is 27, and still can wear lehs! ohmigosh. anyways, i compromised and bought 26. :D hahaa! but the waist is like ohmygod-big. hahaaa. me and min go try, then i let her see the big-ness. hahaa. she was wowed too. :p ohwells.

then then then. after the jeans hunt, we looked at bags. she bought this super i-dont-know-how-to-comment bag, BUT I LOVE IT! :D:D hahaa. although i dont know what i can wear it with. hahaa. nevermind. can borrow. xD ohohoh. she buy liao, makes me feel like buying bags tooooooo. then we go walk all the bag shops. lol!

i was searching for white ones. then i saw this niceeeee white with streaks of gold bag! super nice and classy! but guess what. price tag says 42.90bucks. $$$! ohmigosh righttttt. then i told the lao ban buy liao will xin tong. then he cut till 35bucks for me! then i took the bag, but continued to look around. we tried on alot of different kind of bags! super fun laaaa! xD then when i want to buy and ask for a new piece, then say dont have liao. OBVIOUSLY IS HAVE ONE LORS. then i was leaning against the wall and deciding whether to take the "last piece" as they said.

then lao ban says: aiya give you $33 la. very cheap already!
me: huh.. *scratches the wall*
lao ban: ookays ookays! $30 the lowwwweeesssssttttttt.
me: !!!

i mean, heyy! scroll up and see what was the original price on tag! 42.90! and now! 30 bucks! seeeeee people! bugis street jacks up price! ohmygod. BE CAREFUL YEAH. but im glad i scratched the wall. lol! :p and of course i bought it. hahaa! god right. see? lesson learnt? MUST GO SHOPPING WITH ME! cause i can help you act like i really dont know whether to buy anot, then GET DISCOUNTS! xD muahahahaa! how much % discount was THAT man. gee. too lazy to count, but feels like quite abit. :D

WHAT A BUSY DAY. but wheeeeee~

IM HAPPY!
SHOPPING ROCKS! :D:D

2007-10-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

ookays this is gonna be a random post. i just realise how much i love my bolster.

everytime i reach home, i'll pat my bolster and say "hey bao bei! im back!"

everytime im sad, its always at the same place, waiting for me silently to stop my tears.

everytime im happy, i would recount to it what happened.

everytime im troubled, it would listen patiently as i pour my woes out.

everytime im angry and need to vent my anger, it would never get angry with me.

everytime i tell secrets to it, i can rest assured that it wont tell others.

funny but true, its been with me through the hard and sweet times this year. soo,
I LOVE YOU, MY BOLSTER! :D

hm. started to study ler. D: stupid lep and its end of year project. baaaaa. ive to read 359pages worth of xue shan fei hu (book) ookays. argh.
im killing myself soon.

not caring about suicide first. im meeting huimin and wan ting for subway at j8 later! hahaa. xD dinner with min. woots~ life kinda rocks. for today. :p

2007-10-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

what a day filled with PW.

anyways. its gonna be over soon! :D im looking forward to 6th Nov!

ive been thinking on the way home from school. i recalled saying to myself before promos: "chan qi yin, you must still continue to study even after promos. look at the mess you're in cause you slack too much. you must still have the drive to MUG!" gee. i dont think i kept that promise. ookays ookays. im in reflecting mode already. but still. im gonna start finding my drive! (:

as we go on,
we remember,
all the pumpings did together.
and as our lifes change,
come whatever,
we will still be
friends forever.

30th sc. remember this song that we sang together when we first met? (':

2007-10-26T20:59:00.000+08:00

today's date will be an anniversary next year. :D

anyways. today after sch, met up with huimin and wan ting to walk walk the pasar malam just outside ny's sidegate. saw yong cheng and guo hao when we were jay-walking (shhh). hahaa! and soo "lucky" for yong cheng, he became the tour guide for the walk. hahaa! it was super hot can! then me and wan ting bought coke, and guess what! ITS GLASS BOTTLED! :D:D dont you think its just adorable? then, we went to mac to chill. TOO HOT! and while wating for kk to come, i ate my usual, chocolate fudge with fries. what, dont look at me with those wierd look ookays. its simply delicious! anyways, kk proved that, "Just Chill" simply isnt as nice as it looks. hahaa! :p dont try!

then we and yong cheng supported the idea of taking cab home! CAB CAB CAB! then he provided TEN BUCKS (which is more than half of the trip by abit)! shiok. i immediately agreed. :D ended up discussing how we should fit into the cab, then we boarded this cab with A WIERD DRIVER.

ookays. wierd as in, not pervertic wierd, but, oddly and irritatingly wierd kind of wierd. he keep asking us which route we wanna take, even when yong cheng already told him our choice. after they alight, i was left alone to deal with him. baaaaaaa. here it goes:

driver: so how are you going to reach yew tee?
me: erm erm, bke, then kje?
driver: ookays, let me see. actually there's another route... -blah blah- (i was so not listening)
driver: so how am i supposed to drive?
me: HUH. (so not listening just now) erm.. through kje lor.
driver: how am i going to reach kje?
me: BKEEEEEEEEEEEEE. *pek chek*

righttttts. i forgot most parts, but still. it was FUNNY.

2007-10-24T21:41:00.001+08:00

THANKS ZUL! for putting my name SOO BIG on your blog. hahaa! :p

been through hell this one day. im sorry for making people worried. you guys know you're loved! :D by me, duhh.

line of the day: strength of 30th will always be 34.

2007-10-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

WHAT A SCARE TODAY!

ohwells. good news dont seem to make one happy when the magnitude of bad news is bigger. but im quite glad that everyone is taking things in their stride. (i think)

recalling monday:

look at the ice cream! BEN AND JERRYS!
CHOCOLATE THERAPHY, COOKIE DOUGH AND PHISH FOOD!

eat finish ice cream liao
kinda miss it
soo..
LOOK WHAT WE DID!

2007-10-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

actually wanted to blog about something, but i forgot! x.x abit stm sia. while im waiting for myself to remember, i shall announce:

ZUL IS PROMOTED! :D

YAY! hahaa! yesterday he told me. im happy for him!

.29th and 30th.

shucks. i still cant remember what i wanna talk about. ohwell.

im tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
dont know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
every step that I take is another mistake to you
ive become so numb
i cant feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
im becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

2007-10-20T15:26:00.000+08:00

from inez:
you're such a special girl! no matter what happens, i'll be there for you! 30th will emerge as the strongest and happiest council!

from wan ting:
just wanna let you know you're not alone. you still have and will always have us.

from huimin:
im really scared that you'll leave because i know i cant bear it. you're my friend, my buddy, my shopping partner, my fellow councillor, my listening ear, my.. if you're depressed, and im not with you, take one "heart"(chocolate) out of the sachet for it will hear you out, while i will be there for you soon.

from zulhafiz: No matter what happen qiyin, u know that i'll always be there for you when you need me. We've been through alot and thanks to all those experiences, you feel like a family member to me already.. So jia you for promos and remember, you'll always have me, US, 30th by your side.. just need you to know u've been really special to lotza people. (:

i shall cherish all these. now and forever.
come results and promotional slips,
the places you guys occupy will never change.

2007-10-18T18:33:00.000+08:00

tml's first OP run! :x

ookays. its kinda freaky, not because ive to present, but its cause ive to present the fundamentals of macro economics in FIVE MINUTES! how in world am i supposed to do that. incredibly, i think i can. hahaaa. i just wrote my script. ohmygod. wonder how turns out. x.x

and im still clueless about I & R lehs. sian! 5th Nov faster come and BE GONE! :D:D

ohya. orientation 1 preparation has started. i saw the Application for OGLs Form. ohmygod. i really like the questions. hahaa! *salutes inez* in the mean time, i really wonder what's gonna happen to 30th. today sort cheng told me she's gonna leave college. she's letting mr lim sign the form already. fast man. i hope the rest would be able to stay. although its selfish for me to ask them to. ):

my bolster is nicer to hug than you! hahaa. reflect on that, you!

2007-10-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

you, whose smile makes me feel,
that ive been holding back too much.
and now there's nothing i can do.
as much as i wish to deny it,
but i couldnt.

ohno.

i seriously should get some sleep to think better. tata.

2007-10-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

today i laughed until my jaws ache.

met up with ex-classmates today. like went back to the old days. happiness like never before. hahahaa. is it for real?

*poke poke*

ookays ITS FOR REAL. at least for now. hahaaa. :D

you guys made my day. again.

2007-10-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

everyone's sadding these few days. ):

mood: down
song: the potential breakup song ( http://miaangel345.imeem.com/music/PiJ-IgRe/aly_aj_the_potential_breakup_song/ )

today went with ms. kon jr to vivo. i bought my ben and jerrys. FINALLY. hahaa. cookie dough and choco fudge brownie. hopefully it can cheer me up. and kenny says there's chocolates for me on tuesday! make sure there is! :D

ecks. wr's deadline coming!

2007-10-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU GOD! :D

but i would still continue to pray for 30th.

我们都需要勇气去相信会在一起.

2007-10-10T17:49:00.000+08:00

God, please help the 30th.

ive never really believe in God before, nor have i really prayed. but like what inez said, there's nothing we can do now except to pray. in this kind of situations, its hard not to resort to these mi xing stuffs. today outside the council room, inez let me read her prayer for the 30th. (go read - http://giant-choc0late.blogspot.com/ ) its the exact thoughts that have been running through my mind these days. its 100% that there is no chance of the whole 30th promoting together. even if there is, its so minute. come friday, be it i stay or not, 30th would not be a whole anymore. the moments where we blamed each other for mistakes we've made, suffered council camp together, and the many adhocs that have gone by. next year would never be the same.

i dont get it. if they intend to let those who cannot make it to retain after promos, why didnt they let in more councillors in the first place. it just makes no sense. i know the teacher have their reservations, but wont those who are forced to leave carry a sense of guilt, leaving their responsibilities behind, especially when we really need people for Orientation. major events are held next year, however, 30th would not be 30th anymore. its seriously heartbreaking, to be forced to leave this cca, these friends, after we're that bonded. even those whom are less enthusiastic at first warmed up. and now what.

like what mindy and michelle always told me, God will be merciful. He can see. He can hear. i really hope he hears me and inez. although we're really so small, so insignificant. let our prayers get to Him, despite the many thousands that needed His help too.

im sorry that i made shun kai kinda sad for awhile today when i said that i dont look forward to mass dance for tml and friday. this mass dance is like an irony. we're supposed to end on a high note on friday, when obviously, some people are at their lowest point of their lives. why. i know many may disagree and have their own opinions, but this is my voice. God, please shine Your light upon them, guide them, and hopefully, they can get back to path again after this detour.

amen.

2007-10-07T18:43:00.000+08:00

sunday's over!

tml's monday! got open house dry run! :D:D

oh oh oh. i was packing my cupboard yesterday, i found out that my clothes de colours abit limited sia. alot of black and white. hahaa. this proves that i needa change some of it. super happy that i passed some of my tees to my sis. seriously speaking, i dont know why, but she can wear my tees. WHEN SHE'S PRIMARY TWO. yeah. hahaa. ohwell. nevermind, this is good, can save $$. :p

super dont feel like doing wr, soo i dragged till this aftn, after my nap, then i go do. IM SICK OF PW! argh!

tml's career sem. like all of us "wanted" to go la. x.x

2007-10-06T14:27:00.000+08:00

HEAT

plus

BORDEM

equals

LETHAL!

not too proud of some things ive done in my life
skeletons in my closet
they're too big for me to hide
yet you choose to be
on the side of me

cause everyone
needs a friend to hold
when its cold outside
and there's no place to go

cause everyone
needs a friend to hold
all alone i cry
there was no place to go
i remembered when nobody cared
BUT YOU.

by Corrinne May, On the Side of Me.

2007-10-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

gee. boreeeeeeeeeeeed. :x

haii. i dont really like the times now. im bored, stuck in singapore, have to do pw, AND WORRY ABOUT PROMO RESULTS! ARGH! x.x

2007-10-04T19:37:00.000+08:00

ohyay ohyay OHYAY! xD

mygoddd. today super high at school! :D hahaaa. i saw kk, nina, wendy, nisha, da shu, junjie, fananah! AND I WENT OUT WITH HUIMIN AND WAN TING! :D:D hahahaa. we went nyny to eat, and talk for.. letme count.. about 3hrs over. super shiok! I LOVE TALKING! xD hahaaa. all the usual topics were there, then there's open house, and next year's COUNCIL CAMP! mygod. SOO HIGH. ohohoh! we going out on SATURDAY! :D but i havent found a place to go. sians. i cannot make decision on where to go one.. :x nevermind! i shall decide! soon. :p

then i came home to sleep. super pig, i mean, eat, talk, sleep. wow, what a life. hahahaa!(: but i woke up on a bad note, soo yeah. :x

ooh. my dad's coming home with HOR FUN.(: maybe i'll feel happier.

im still talking to huimin on msn! :D:D wow. the old bp feel is back! I LIKE.

2007-10-03T18:56:00.000+08:00

one day one day! :D:D

ohmygod. time flies when im being a pig. know what, i got this irritating relay (:p) late last night that gp file must hand in by tml! whatthe! made me lose sleep can. my gp file is like, all over the place. argh! D: i shall be packing it tonight. haii. MRS GAN, GIVE ME THE MOTIVATION! xP

ohwells. chewy smsed about afew hours ago that he's back in Singapore. cool sia. i missed Changi Airport! I WANNA GO OVERSEAS TOO! ): ohwells. AND HE COMPLAINED THAT XINYU USED UP ALOT OF HIS $$ TO SMS! (go cindia, go tell xinyu! xP) hahahaa!

and i got another shock today when i was out late in the morning. ahhhhhhh. shoo!

TML I SHALL MEET UP WITH HUIMIN AND WAN TING! xD weeeeeeee~
and my pw group. shucks. i hate pw! ):

2007-10-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

TWO DAYS! to the release of everybody! :D:D

wee~ i just realised how much i missed everybody. huimin and wan ting, kk's cold jokes in the morning, inez's talks, nina's gossips, and even ya ying's high-ness! xP gee, school MUST reopen soon. xD i dont like monday though. our class would be separated again. sian. but monday got open house rehearsal! :D:D not bad not bad. i like, can see councillors again! xD

today i just got another shock of my life. hahaa. lucky nina was there. if not i dont know how to react sia.(:

I WANNA BAKE SOMETHING ON SUNDAY! can bring to school on monday! :D:D got sc. hahaaa. not bad! can consider. xD woah. i cant waaaaaaitt for thursday to come! everything shall restart! :D

I MISS YOU GUYS LOADS!